I’ve been in a funk lately, to say the least. I haven’t blogged in a long time (and I tend to do this every once in awhile) and I was feeling very uninspired. Makeup wasn’t making me excited like it used to. I started to look at my makeup collection and think, “Why am I spending all this money to wash this down the drain at the end of the day?” It started to bother me. So I didn’t make an effort to get all dolled up in the morning and I didn’t buy any new and exciting products.
I also just recently changed my career path. I was a marketing major with a management minor. My vision was to do something fun in marketing, whether it be in sports or makeup. Wherever I ended up, I wanted to have fun at my job and look forward to waking up every morning. So naturally, I was working towards this. I had an internship interview with Target. But I didn’t get it. It made me very upset because 1. I love Target 2. They are a phenomenal company to work for and 3. That internship would provide me with so much valuable experience.
When I received the email saying that I didn’t land the position, I was crushed. I thought for sure that I would be a great fit in their company. (But now as I look back at it, I probably am a great fit, they just get a million people that are great fits because they are such a great place to work for.) So then I started pondering what I could do with my life that would be fulfilling. More fulfilling than a marketing job where I market makeup to consumers…because I was in a makeup funk. I wanted to make a difference in the world. I wanted to be important.
At the beginning of the year, I started volunteering at my church. I help out with two year olds on Sunday mornings. It’s essentially a classroom. We have play time, we color, we learn about Jesus. The kids are amazing. 2 year olds are SMART. We sing songs and they know all the words! They pick up on everything and it’s so cool to watch them grow week after week.
As I started to think about what I wanted my future to look like, I looked at those smiling faces. I thought, “I could totally do this everyday. I would love to do this everyday.” And so I met with a professor who is in early childhood education. Since I’m a junior and should be graduating next year, if I went into early childhood ed, it would be like completely starting over. I only have a few more classes to take to get my degree in marketing and minor in management. So I thought some more. I knew I wanted to be a teacher. I want to be a mentor and make a difference.
I thought about my life and which teachers made the greatest impact on it. Then I stumbled on it: business education. My one business teacher in high school (she taught accounting) was the one that inspired me to major in business. (I was an accounting major for a semester, too. Don’t hate…I loved it in high school and it made sense to me.) I thought more about how much she impacted my life. She was also my FBLA advisor. FBLA was the only club in high school that I truly loved and looked forward to being a part of every year. I was so sad when that chapter of my life ended. States and Nationals were some of the greatest highlights of my high school career.
I added business education as my second major and I’m in the process of getting all my ducks in a row before I can student teach. I get to observe in an elementary classroom next week and I am so excited! I will have to go an extra year, but that doesn’t bother me. I finally found a career that has purpose. (Not saying that a career in marketing or management doesn’t have purpose, just saying that this is more fulfilling to me personally.) I finally feel like I am becoming the person that I was made to be. I feel like life is starting to make sense now.
Which leads me back to makeup. I finally bought some new makeup. Well, it’s not really new. Both products have been out for a while, I just haven’t purchased them until now. So hopefully I’ll be sharing a few things with you guys soon. I feel like I was in a funk with makeup because I was in a funk personally. But now that I have some direction, I’m ready to prime, blend, and highlight away!
The reason I’m sharing with you guys my life update is to tell you that if you’re going through something and are feeling uninspired, it’s okay. Take a few steps back and assess the situation. Find out what’s really bothering you and fix it. Your life is in your hands. You make or break how great of a day you’re going to have. Choose to be happy.
Making a life and career change can be scary. I’m excited but I’m a little scared, too. I’m afraid of all of the what ifs. And honestly, that’s what is so cool about it, the what ifs. It’s certainly an adventure but I am so excited for the ride!
Thanks for reading<3